Ready

I don't know why this has come about, but maybe it was amixture of things that I have done today. I feel ready to move on now. I think it has to do with dropping the stuff that I've been carrying for a while and being ready to pick something else up. I am ready to be me again. I think I have been trying to be me for a while now but not knowing how really, but now I've remembered or it's been given to me, I feel that I can be me again!
It's taken a few years, and some healing and a lot of writing too, but I feel there, at the brink of an adventure. I think it was a mixture of writing the first blog of today (which is now at the count of 3!) and that had a cathartic affect on me. Then I went to tidy up some things, which always helps your own state of mind and motivation, and then I worshipped God which also helps! And then I re-read the beginnings of this blog that was 6 years ago! Man that was a long time! And now I am writing this! I feel that the occasion should be marked in some way! I don't know how though. Maybe at some point i'll have a little celebratory drink or something!
I feel freer than I have done in a while, free from my own past and decisions that took me down a deviated path, but now I feel like I've learnt some more things that have been beneficial to me at this point in time so that I can finally move on! I may well read this back in a couple of years or so and chuckle to myself at the way that I wrote I feel like I've learnt things, as I re-read my earliest blogs on here today I said that I had learnt a lot of things, but I suppose you are still learning all the time, and you can't expect to know everything anyway, no one will!
I can't believe I've blogged three times in one day. I want a holiday!!!!!!!!!! - just a random thought, not just because of the amount of work that it takes to write three blogs!!! :o)