bleurgh!

This de ja vous is becoming so depressing; the same monotonous voice rings in my head: no post today. I don't know what I expect to come through the post, maybe a confirmation letter or at least a letter of acknowledgement that I've actually spent time completing an application form to send in to your establishment, but I unfortunately have not been successful at this time... In the month that we have been here the only job I've got a response from was the recruitment offices that I've signed on to. I have three weeks work in a special school as a temp receptionist until the end of term as the person before was bored out of his tree (so it seemed from his previous emails that were not destroyed inform me). I know there are people in a worse situation, and I am only small, I don't take up too much room, you can put me in the corner of a house and leave me if you wish, I don't eat copious amounts, I don't spend much, if at all anything, so I am quite easy to keep. I just wish I had a fulfilling job that was full time, or the equivalent to full time pay so that we could start saving and actually accomplish things in our life that we want to do. It gets you down, I know it's only for a time and I do have my more positive days, this one is swinging in that direction of positivity, it's just I'm getting a little tired of my own potential not being used to its fullest. I know what potential I have, and I wish someone else would see that in me and hire me to do a challenging job that I could handle and show off my best aspects. I want to know the best thing I am good at, and just go for it. I want to go back to when I was smaller, when I had more time to think what I wanted to do with my life, and try different things out like art and writing, and an internship at a publishers or an advertising company, so I wouldn't be stuck here knowing what I could have done and achieved and regretting it.