Having a small problemma, a thing that people might call a block, a stunt, a wall, an obstacle, a motivational problem maybe.. whatever you'd like to call it, its haunting me!
So bad that it makes you bite your nails and worry, even to the extent of biting your lip and its a great way of doing other things like tidying your room or writing that letter or phoning that person that you were 'just about to do', I suppose I should be thankful for the way that it stimulates other reponses, for example making elaborate dishes to eat, or incessantly cleaning, everything other than what you're rally supposed to be doing... that 5 letter word that stirs fear into the hearts of students, the one that makes you shake, even if you've started it way before the due date, it still manages to terrify somehow! The realisation sinks in.... maybe I will never be able to do it, maybe I will never be able to understand... what if I've chosen the wrong question, what if I don't answer it? What if I think I've done well, to get my mark back and be totally gutted?
I think the answer is to give it a go, its only the first year, so what if you totally mess the first one up? It makes you look like a fool, yeah so what?!I suppose I need more confidence in myself and my abilities... thats why we're doing what we do? No? because we can, because we have to. Because we enjoy it?! Maybe the experience, but never the stress!
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essays...yeah know the feeling. I have 3 due in in a week, 2 are almost complete and the third? hasn' even been started yet hence, like you, I am procrastinating and doing my emails and looking at blogs!
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