Hard Decisions

It all began last November. It was during my best friend's birthday party. Basically for some reason I had thought that she was only inviting me and the hub and then a close mutual friend for an intimate party. Unbeknownst to me, she had invited about 4 other people who I had absolutely no idea who they were. At that moment an alarm went off in my head, and a slowlyticking timer had begun. I knew at the moment when I walked into the room, that our friendship was on it's last legs. It hurt to see. And all evening I was fighting against what I knew to be true, that our friendship would peter out, and the thing that I thought would last forever, had a sell by date on it. It took me a good few weeks after that party to get my head around what had happened. I had seen my best friend move on, and wow it hurt.
They came down for my birthday, my best friend and her hub. We had a lovely evening, I made a meal which was enjoyed and we played poker. There was an unnuttered conversation happening between me and my best friend that evening that was a slow realisation between us of what was happening. I knew things would never be the same after the birthday, but I think when it came round to my birthday, that's when it was realised by her.
And now we booked togo on holiday together. I have just sent the cheque in for the full deposit. It's mine and thehubs only real summer holiday this year, except for my brother's wedding which I am looking forward to immensely. Thing is, now that we both know what's going on, it's going to be difficult to be around each other and it not to come out. It won't be the same as last year, which I think is what Craig thinks it will be like. I have a feeling it's not only going to be truly awkward but that there's this big elephant in the room which none of us have talked about. We're both too polite to do it. We have hardly spoken since she came to visit. We used to meet up about once a week.
I think this will be our last holiday this year all together. And it is like breaking up with someone.
Thing is, we can't lie to each other, but are we going to carry on this farcical behaviour?

That's a tough decision.