So, following on from the post yesterday, I had the urge to keep up with this blogging once again, even if no one else reads this, I think it's therapeutic to be writing and conveying my thoughts. I heard today that I hadn't got the job that I applied for last friday. Thing is I prayed about it and gave it totally to God, that whatever happened that it would be the right thing, so if I got the job then it would be good, and if I didn't then it would be for the best too. Only thing is that the extra money would have been helpful, not that we're struggling at all, we're actually able to save each month, but it means that we have to stay in rented accomodation longer than if we'd had got the better salary. On the up-side though it means that I can start to look for jobs that are not a stop gap- and that I really want to do and will enjoy. One of these options is teaching, and the other is publishing/editing/proof-reading/copywriting. Any of these jobs would be really great.
I think that the news affected Craig more than it did for me, as it hi-lights his fears about not having enough money. But I know God will have our back, and I'm safe in the knowledge and trust in Him so I'm not worried, I just want to know what my destiny holds. What are the plans that God has for me and for Craig? I know they are far higher than our own, Craig is a good example of that - his radio job is something that was once only a dream, he never thought that he could do it until he got into it last year.
I really believe this to be the best thing that's happened to me in ages. Working at clarks keeps the fear alive, as I don't want to be there forever! which motivates me to keep looking for jobs which is exciting.
I know that I don't want to be mediocre, I want to leave something behind when I go. I want to change things, to help people achieve their best, I want to do something that I love and that I'm great at. I want to be happy in that job/pasttime. I want to achieve things that I thought would be out of my reach. I want to be remembered by people. Is that too much to ask?
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