rant

What with thinking about Keats and sentimentalism, the Romantics versus Reality and the Enlightenment; Darwinism and the Gothic, Shelley and his strange views about Coleridge's poem Christabel strange lesbionic vampires too! my head is getting very full of nonsense (some of it is anyway!) I feel like it needs a really good spring-clean!!! I have four books to read before the end of term(and two of them are BIG!) and I have four private study projects to hand in too!

I have done a presentation and was 2% off of a first, which really quite bugs me! because I worked really hard on it, and did enjoy it too! (which is weird for me; enjoying a presentation!)

I've also been having coffee with my friend who is also doing English, and also with the student worker who helps out in CU and is connected with a local church the other day, about including the bible, and theologians in a piece of work that I have to do. and I thought that that would help me in focussing my energies and head onto something concrete, but in a way it has opened up more possibilities, and also it is only 1500 words, and that isnt much when you want to say what I want to say!(please pray about that!)

Being in the library, writing my blog when I need to do copious amounts of reading and writing and thinking and stressing etc.... all at once isn't too helpful either, but I really felt that I just needed a rant, and a rave, and to be honest, I haven't written in the blog for a while, and so I thought I would treat myself by doing so!!!

Its amazing to think actually how much I went out last year compared to this year, and how much more work they pile on, and how they chuck you in at the deep end in the second year (maybe its because I've done two first years that I'm not used to doing a second year or something!) but its difficult! But i've accepted the challenge, thrown down the gauntlet, and yes, I have been slightly more organised tahn I was this time last year, and I have been working harder (because this year counts) but I haven't been enjoying uni life as much as I did last year, maybe I've grown out of the Chester NEW EXPERIENCE phase, and this is the time where as the saying goes the rubber hits the road, or whatever(!)

Also, trying to 'juggle' that with CU responsibilities (small group leading) and helping out at my church with the youth group, and Craig!!! I don't get much time to blog... or maybe I'm beginning to think its my own time-management!

phew! sorry if this doesn't make much sense at all, I need to go now anyway!