I don't actually know how much more I can take of this. I was given some work last week, had an interview last week (hearing from them in 2 weeks time) and had an interview today. It's not like I'm not trying, it's just that it's not working. Either I am doing something wrong, or they just don't like me. I'm still waiting to hear back from the one today, but I have absolutely no clue as to how I've got on. I could do the job, but the interview process was rigorous, you had to complete a task and present it back to the interview panel. I was actually quite calm about it, which was good, but I have no idea as to what they were looking for, and looking back I could have added so much more.
I am sick of not having a job or an income. I just want to go to work, come home and have an income so that we can save up for a mortgage/the future. I just don't want to keep worrying Craig, I am frustrated too, he doesn't want to see me sad, so at the moment it's a lose lose situation. I mean we're not struggling, but we're not flourishing either. It's totally frustrating (I know I've just said that, but I'm trying to underline this).
I think I can do this job, and it has enough to keep me interested. The only thing is that when I was there they knew the person that was going to be interviewed next, so that can be a downpoint, as they already know that person.
I have no idea as to how I got on though, it's 50-50 whether I get it or not. I would enjoy having the larger income for a bit and Craig would be more comfortable, leading to a better marriage. We can get onwards and upwards with our lives, at the moment we feel like our lives are on hold.
Totally frustrating.
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