born in the UK

Having been born in the UK I didn't think it was possible to get to a place where you would actually have a culture shock. Living in Stoke is goign to be so different than Chester, or even Aylesbury for that matter. To be honest, if I don't get a job soon I don't know how I'm going to survive, sounds a bit dramatic, but my own mental health is seriously diminishing. I need to do something productive with my time. I nearly got a panic attack just going into town today, that could have been for many reasons, but I'm sure that the job is playing a big factor in this. Also I feel alone in my decisions, Craig seems stressed out when I talk to him and our money situation isn't helping. It's just a major catalyst in this situation. He's not happy soemtimes and takes it out on me which I'm not taking. I don't know whether he knows he is doing this, but I will point it out to him, and not stand by while he blames me for things that are not my fault. grrrr