not in a month of Sundays!

I am sorry but when you work for a Christian organisation you expect certain things like towork with Christians, to do Christian things at work like pray and encourage each other and stuff and three: and this is the biggie: not to be asked to work EVERY sunday (!)


WHAT?



I hear you say....


and I would have to say I really don't know, but all I do know is that we're not going to take it lying down!!!! Firslty its the only day we get off together secondly, it would be detrimental to our marriage, and thirdly, what Christian organisation asks someone to work EVERY sunday? - I mean you are taking people away from church, away from fellowship and teaching and feeding that you need on a sunday, and you are saying basically that you are against marriage as you have told them that this would be bad for your marriage, and they're still saying ask your wife.....

I'm sorry but this is one thing that I'm putting my foot down with God: God, you need to sort this out cos we're not taking it!


Rant over!

everything's not lost

Today I feel like a liquid - I feel like I have no substance, could easily just sit here doing nothing and feeling heavy. Bad feeling. Last night I went to a friend's birthday party which was nice to be sociable, but it made me feel rubbish at the end as I sat near lots of people that have the job that I really want, and it makes me feel sad and rubbish at the same time, thinking that they got their reasonably easy and I feel like i'm struggling- it's like trying to run through honey with a huge weight on my back with a person that is telling me, even shouting at me to run faster.

time to kill

So this blog will be a bit self explanatory, I do have a few hours to 'kill' so I thought I would try and use my time wisely, rather than just going on the internet and on social networking sites such as facebook! The student that I am working with at the moment is quite rude, and fairly annoying. She keeps herself to herself which is great, but she never apologises for anything, and I'm not going to either, I ahve made that decision, she doesn't apologise for being late, doesn't realise the amount of commitment it takes for me to get into Keele from Chester, and the tiredness and stress it may cause. She doesn't seem to look past the end of her own nose, her responsibilities seem unreasonable to her, she sits in her lectures and she goes on the internet she doesn't even seem to want to be there, I ahve no idea why I am taking notes for her as she can type quicker than I can; but she says she has a small attention span so it means I have to write unjoined words with different ink colours each with a line space in between. It's so time consuming thinking about which colour comes next etc that I find I miss some important notes and my sentence structure is stunted by the switch that often occurs mid sentence between colours!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Drops Like Stars Tour

I am so excited, things are going so well at the moment, I have been to the cinema this week, had a meal out, just had a coffee with the hub (which is my love language - quality time:) and now I've just heard that Craig, through his work has been able to get a ticket to the Drops Like Stars tour and I'm going on the 15th March this year, I'm so excited, this is brilliant. I haven't had anything to look forward to in a while, and things are just happening now which is fantastic - it just goes to show that when you become more open to opportunities and positive about your current situation then good things can happen :O)

I'm trying to blog more so I can trace these things so that when I am feeling a bit sorry for myself I can read this and feel happier. I am also blogging more in an attempt to get a bit better at writing. I figure that if I write more, I will get better at it!

I doubt anyone reads this anymore, but this is really just for myself!

My thoughts this week so far....

Right so what I've done so far this week to make things a bit better for myself (and it's only tuesday!):
1.) Been to the cinema and watched Avatar (which I really enjoyed)
2.) Went out for a meal with the hub
3.) Been open to meet up with a friend who I've not seen in ages

so, this is a new development for me; it's working well, and I have to keep up the momentum, (I'm also trying to blog my thoughts more!)

In regards to Avatar, I disagree that it is just a film with overgrown smurfs on it; this view is too limiting. If you fail to see the beauty of the world and the community that they created which was pure and unadulterated then we can learn something from them; their way of life in respecting animals and the creation around them. I also loved the idea of downloading your thoughts and memories, even your voice into something that was going to last forever.

It had nuances as well as similarities to other films, the 'human' section of the film resonated with minority report and other sci fi movies (the screens which held the information, and moving the information around the screen by hand etc was first done in minority report, and also seen in surrogates.)

The nuances consisted not only of the different animals and eco systems in that world called Pandora, but of the way that all the clans could connect to nature and animals were amazing. the community aspect was special, and also wherever they walked they seemed to be emitting light. I loved James Cameron's ideas which pushed the boundaries of the human imagination to come up with; bravo for producing something that was unique, but beautiful.

All too often film makers come up with horrors that are unique but morbidly dsgusting, and I am ashsmed to think that someone human could come up with these ideas and place them in front of us on the big screens, it makes me feel slightly ill. I am not suggesting that I am perfect, but it is nice to see that a film maker can create something beautiful. the floating mountains were gorgeous, and the idea that you could choose your own bird thingy (don't know the actual name!) was immense!

In short Avatar was a film to be seen on the big screen; not just for the 3d experience but also for the ideas behind it, it was not just a linear plot that was sorted out at the end, but an ongoing striving for us to seek the best in things, respecting nature around us and working with it rather than against it.