christmas eve; mistletoe and ?

I can't believe that it's Christmas Eve already. To be honest with you all, I do find it hard to remember what I did for last year, at Christmas time (not for all the wrong reasons- I just have a very poor memory!) But I can definitely remember earlier on this year, namely January, in a sense my mind has only just caught up with the fact that it's 2004, let alone December, let alone the eve of christmas day! I feel that this year has been so productive in many ways, but in others I feel that it has been somewhat of a waste of time and effort, people that know me, know that I don't need to explain the instances that have made me feel like this. I am so thankful that through God's grace, he has given me a place in Chester, and that fact alone has made me able to appreciate life again, all the little pleasures, even to the smallest ones like walking down a street in Chester, even getting up at 8 some mornings, when I feel like moaning about the seeming amount of work that I have got to hand in, I can't moan, I can't say I'm bored because I'm just really glad that I'm able to be doing what I am doing. I really want to understand more about God's grace, and by the conversations i've had this week alone, I am beginning to understand that this is going to be taught to me over a long period of time. I suppose I will have to learn patience too(!)
Not wanting in any way to sound like a tedious speech at an Oscar's awards ceremony... I just like to thank some people that have made this year special for me in so many ways, Rebecca, Becci, Rachel, Daniel, Matt, Jonathan and so many more people that have just been so supportive and helpful, and real rocks. Thanks guys, I seriously couldn't have got through the year without you all, some just by giving me advice, others talking with me, hugs, you've all just been amazing, and have really helped me to get back to who I am now, (which is me!) thank you for sticking by me, even when i've tried to get you to stop talking to me, and stop giving me advice, and to generally be on my own, thanks for not giving up on me, I love you all dearly. Thank you for all helping to see my dream and helping me to go for it too.
I just hope and pray that I will be able to reciprocate that to you all, by showing you how much I care for you all, and that I really do hope that you all have a fantastic Christmas Day, and even though some of you will have family that are away, I just pray that this would be a really good time of celebrating even when circumstances are difficult for you.
I just want to finish by sending a BIG HUG to all my friends!
XXX

this is a mad night with a couple of friends from Kingsley Lodge... Ernin, Me, Bizzy and Alli 

GTA

Warped time encases the watchers, they are too engrossed to do anything even think about any five letter, or come to think of it, four letter word. The world can stop for at least a couple of hours, watching fellow housemates go on a murdering rampage, stealing cars, even flying planes. 'Make all the cars pink,' shouts one with an excited air, 'no, black, thats so much more cooler.' Everything else becomes a game, the police cars actually are driving down the street outside, sirens blaring, reality becomes mixed with fiction and the lines that once distinguished between them becomes smudged, is this an indefinite state of mind, or just a temporary glitch? Some have been imprisoned in their rooms over a week now, we rarely notice their existence, we wonder how they survive, pot noodles? Crisps? The questions buzz around our minds, why did you come here? How are you going to pass? wil they let you?

Narnia

How cool is this, I am able to choose ANY piece of creative writing, and then critically write about it... I am choosing The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe as mine! I love the fact that I will be able to bring in (slightly) things to do with God and the bible, just by writing about a chapter of this book.

And whilst looking for ideas from the web, I stumbled across a site that reminded me of the fact that some good person, in New Zealand, is going to put Narnia onto the big screen, how great will that be?! (the same guy who produced Shrek).. I 'm really looking forward to watching that, they are hoping to do all 7 of the books, but not in 7 movies, I think they're trying to get it down to 5 or so.

I hope that everyone is having a good December so far, and we all have advent calendars?

x

naive-freda

Life; its been very weird lately. And by saying that I don't really know why, which is strange in and of itself, as I can normally reason things in my own mind. This week for instance... Half the things that have happened, I would never have guessed I would do at the start, some being good, others being not so, some having good consequences and others not good. Yesterday I think was my weirdest day in Chester to date. In the morning, I met with my small group, which was normal and cool. Then I went to a drop in centre for people who are homeless, just to help out, and give them food, chat with them, give them blankets etc.. I found that the zeal they had for life really challenged me, they were so positive, it was amazing, these people being really positive kind of helped the conversation go into spiritual things, and where they stood with what they believed.

Then the not so good came later on that evening, when I went out with my housemates, I mean I loved going out with them all, but I had had such a big tea that I was stone cold sober, and when it comes to dancing you have to be slightly more up for it (well I do anyway) and so I got another drink, and that one was a bit too much really, I should have stopped with the one before, I suppose you can fill in the gaps with what people thought, and I was ashamed. I mean nothing too bad happened, I was just a bit jolly- now I know my limits!

I'm finding it a bit difficult to do my work too, lack of motivation or whatever, I dunno, but the week goes so quickly its silly! It comes round to monday morning and then I realise that I haven't done a bit of work that I was supposed to, or something like that! oops! I should be well more organised really.

Btw, Bex, I would love to see you but still need to think of a time that I could feel more relaxed (not with so much work to be handed in) I think the best time to come and see you was probably late October or november, but I would love to come maybe in the new year.x