confession

Here's a confession:

Maybe I have forgotten how to make true friends.

There, I've said it.

I have problems with making deep friendships. I think people just think I'm really ignorant or something as I find it difficult keeping up friendships when I've made them.

No longer living under fear

Recently we moved house. We are so much more happy with where we live now. It made me realise how fearful I can be. The house we now live in is a terrace, our front door goes straight from the path outside into our living room, so people can walk right outside our door. This can often be loud. As the houses are so close to one another and the walls are pretty thin, we can hear our next door neighbours as if they were in our kitchen. Whilst being on my own, in the evening I have often thought that there has been someone else in the house, due to the noise. I have walked around the house so fearful, calling out 'is anyone there?' (which is probably the most stupid thing you can do!) I used to be so skittish when it came to loud noises, but just now I've heard someone shout right outside our house, and I've not even flinched.
I think if you don't realise how fearful you are then it can take hold of your life and you can live with it without realising it's there.

But now I know I can take steps to fight against it, with God's help!

'I will fear no evil, for you are with me' Psalm 23.