I've been away for so long that I thought I would grace(!) you with another blog! So much stuff has happened since I last wrote anything on here. (BTW I have no idea what the comment is about on my last blog and I hope that I could delete it!) anywhoo...
I just want to say that being at SS was AMAZING, I mean yeah maybe the teaching was not up to the likes of Pwllheli or other places I have been, but sometimes I need a kick-start with things of the heart rather than just intellectual stimulation (which is good also!)
Up til SS I felt so far away from God and that I was just never going to be able to go back to a close relationship with Him, but through his mercy and infinite grace and wisdom, he indeed brought me back to him, and brought me a lot closer, I think I can safely say, closer than I have ever been before (probably not 'safely say' because as soon as you admit to something like that its an invitation for the devil to get in and use it to his advantage) So much happened in my heart and in my head while I have been at Chester this past year, I was growing without really feeling close to God, and that helped me to be open to what God was going to eventually do in my life this week (sorry if this isnt making much sense, but i'm a bit tired and am swiftly going for a nap after!)
His timing, again is immense and spot on. I was ready for this, I was seeking God and I just felt for ages that I couldn't get through, then I realised that I actually built the barrier that divided us, and he was there all along, I just needed to take the barrier down and let him into all my life, not just selected parts of it. I've never felt like this before about Jesus and it's really like I have finally realised what it means to be a Christian. I'm a slow learner, but God has been patient, and I'm so thankful for that!
